Thursday, September 9, 2010

in preparation

I feel like the season that I'm in, and the season I have been in for a while, is a season of preparation. 
God has been preparing me for so many things.
I was thinking of a couple today- mainly these two things:

1. God has been preparing me to be a Wife.
I know, it may sound strange, but recently I have thought about the kind of wife (after college of course) that I want to be. 
I know what I want in a husband, that's easy, but recently I started to really think about me- as a wife.
 I think so often young women don't strive to be an honorable Proverbs 31 wife, but expect to receive a perfect godly husband. 
I want to be a wife that is
Holy Spirit-directed, 
constantly praying for her family,
a humble servant,
a woman that stands by the side of her husband in times of trial,
and a peacemaker.
That is the wife that I want to be. 
I've been re-reading Proverbs 31;
 I've read it many times, but for some reason I have become re-facinated with it. 

2. God has been preparing me to be a Mom.
(Let me express, I don't want to be a mom for a long time. Sometime in the way future.) 
But I have been thinking...
 Again it might sound strange, but ever since July when I went to Seattle to visit my cousin and her kids, I have been thinking more and more about how I want to be when I'm a mom.
I want to be fun, but respected. 
I want to push my kids, but not to the point that they turn rebellious rather than striving in excellence. 
As I watch my pastors and close friends that are young parents parent their children, I have only seen good examples. 
I want to be exuberant like Meg Borders is with her girls, patiently pastoring like Matt and Lisa are with their children, and down to earth like my cousin, Angie, is with her kids. 
I think about everything from my fashion as a mom to my attitude towards my future kids. 
Let's just say- I hope both are excellent. ;)