Tuesday, January 11, 2011

because I want to

Many people have been asking me what my New Year's Resolution is. 
Well, to be quite honest with you, I didn't even think about it. 
I figured it would just come naturally, and it did. 
I went to coffee with Amber last week and afterwards I had a whirlwind of thoughts, emotions, fears, desires, etc. 
Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if your parents didn't raise you the way they did? 
What about if you lived in a completely different environment?
For some, they have been raised in a strict religious family that contain black and white morals and have ignored any grey areas. For others, they grew up having absolutely no morals except- at least try to act normal and fit in with society. 
Everyone else- they fall somewhere in between. 

So back to my new years resolution..
I guess I caught myself wondering- do I make the right decisions and act out of wisdom because I WANT to?... or simply because that's the expectation that has been set on me, the standard that's been forced, or of the fear of any sort of punishment or rebuke from my parents, teachers, and influences?

My new years resolution: to be absolutely genuine, authentic, and to make the "right" decisions because I WANT to, not because I feel forced. 
I know the song is super old, but it came to my head as I was thinking about all of this. 
It's by Switchfoot and a line in the song, that I often just sung and never really thought about, says this:
"This is YOUR life... are you who YOU want to be?"

I encourage you to do the same. 
Think about it. 
Are you who YOU want to be, or are you who OTHERS want you to be?...