Sunday, March 20, 2016

when the unexpected happens

If you've ever found yourself in an un-ideal situation in your life, this post is for you.
Have you ever felt like there's no light at the end of the tunnel? 
Maybe you've gone into a season of your life that wasn't what you expected it to be, or maybe WHAM! something tragic, unexpected, or challenging hit you out of the blue one day.
You know, something that my friends and I in this baseball life talk about almost all the time is the roller coaster we are on in this journey through our husband's / boyfriend's career. 
I have been through the worst of storms with women, whether it's an injury or a release or a trade, but have also shared in pure joy as their men make their MLB Debut or their "firsts" in their career.
This lifestyle is a roller coaster between,
"What the heck is happening!?" 

I'm not saying either is wrong.
At all.
I've been in those exact situations– many times!

Can I be really candid with you?
I feel like God has really been teaching me about trusting Him above everything.
Trusting HIM, instead of what I "feel like" should happen or what I thought God wanted for us.
It's funny because I am so human when it comes to this.
One morning I'll be praying and having full faith and trust in Him, then within hours, minutes even!.. I'm back to doubting and fearing.

Maybe you can relate.
Maybe yours aren't the fears and doubts I may have, since our worlds could be completely different.
But it could be where you find your next job.
It could be what college you should attend.
It could be how to figure out how to feed your family and pay bills this month.

All of us struggle with something, and I'm here to tell you that it's okay and normal and totally human.
I'm also here to tell you (and myself) that "struggle" (like I'm learning) isn't always a bad thing.
Suffering is always used for God's glory (just how good He is to us) to be revealed in your life and the lives of those around you.
If only we talked about it more!

I went to a women's Bible study this past week put on by a church my husband found online, (yes, that's how we find community in every city we stay at for longer than a week-- thank you, Google) and it was so cool to see women I didn't know opening up about their struggles with one another.
I thought, this is it.
This is community.
These women were helping one another find strength and faith through their own doubts and fears and struggles; it was so encouraging to see.

I heard a pastor once say,
"You may not understand the season you are in right now, but the seed of your sorrow is for someone else's tomorrow."
That really resonated with me.

I found so much hope in 1 John 5:4 yesterday––

For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith.

I was instantly filled with faith as I read these words.
The thing is, when we find our fulfillment in God alone rather than our jobs, money, or status...if those things get stripped away from us, our whole world doesn't come crashing down.
Our faith in what God is doing with our lives enables us to overcome any suffering or struggle we may face; it's the very thing that gives us victory and peace in times of "unfortunate circumstances". We begin to trust God's greater, best plan for our life, because when everything fails us, He remains faithful.
When your fulfillment and faith is in Him, it takes the pressure off of you to figure things out or perform and the promise of His sovereignty takes over.
There's a freedom in knowing He has your back, He is covering and protecting you, and His movement of you may just be a little uncomfortable right now, but it will all workout in the end.

I hope this helps you as much as it helped me.
In a lifestyle full of unknowns, I cling to this verse.
No matter what happens in our lives, God is so faithful.
He has proven that to me too many times already to not trust or believe it now.
Today, will you choose to have faith in the God that loves you more than you know?
Will you open your heart and eyes to see that ALL things are working out for your good and His glory?

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